chapter 46

(listened to with me- by sum 41 on repeat while writing this.you guys will feel more in the moment if you listen too)

-LAYAN-

(one day later)

when faisal dropped me home last night he went off doing what he does best i recieved a text

it was from fahad:"heads up lay, tommorows his bday"

i laughed at that.

i sent him a quick thanks and ordered a bunch of cakes .

so now today when i woke up . i checked faisals room and found him a tangle under his covers sound asleep.

sabi3 nouma ya7laila,

bas even when asleep he looked dangerous. ready to pounce at any intrusion

i recieved the cakes and food and everything then i got out some dvds since , weellll he never really ever has a say in what we watch on fridays, maybe today he could choose, you know since its his birthday.

at 5 pm i closed the living room lights and went to his room.

i got in and found him still asleep.

so i tiptoed next to him on the side of the bed and squeked a "faisal?"

i repeated but in a louder voice,

then i poked his arm

then i lost my temper and sat on the bed and started shaking him

"FAISAL WAKE UP"

he grunted and cracked open a black irised eye and then he closed it , falling back asleep

thats when he did something unexpected

he pulled me into his arms and squezed me as if i was a teddy bear.

as if he forgot this wasnt a dream

then he smelled my hair and sighed.

i realized he was wearing a white shirt and black boxers.

and my body was smushed up against his,

i tried to wriggle out but his grip was like steal and his arms were unbreakably strong.

i gave up and looked up at him but my face was on his neck so the highest i could see was his chin

me:"faisal"

faisal:"hmm?"  he smelled like cinnamon, mint, and a faint smell of aftershave and cigars

he burried his face in my hair

me:"i think theres a roach nest in the living room, i need you to go call the-"

he backed up enough to look at me

faisal:"ill go see for myself" he said tiredly,

i thought hed let me go so i wriggled.

and he did reluctantly.
when i got up he pulled me back down and before i knew it all i could see was his eyes

faisal:"i thought you were scared of cockroaches"

me:"nnot that much" i lied



he gave me one of his tired smiles

he got up tiredly and rubbed his eyes.

he yawned.

faisal:"take me to the cockroaches" he said.

i had to grab hold of his arm from how slow he was gowing and i had to fight with all my strength not to jump up and down with glee and excitement

faisal:"ya baba shwayshway, if we dont catch it well call an exterminator"

this man walked at a slugs pace.

when we got to the living room the lights were out

i asked him to open the lights when he did

he froze, his eyes grew wide.

me:"HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAISALLLL"


he was staring at the huge birthday cake that said happy 18th birthday and the chocolate foundant and cookies and cupcakes, and croissants, and fruit dipped in chocolate, pinkpasta to pesto.


then he turned to me

faisal:"why?" he asked in shock

i was taken aback

me:"cuz its your birthday"

faisal:"you didnt have to do this" he whispered

me:"i wanted to!! you only turn 18 once in your life!! now you can finally drive!!! legally"

all he did was look at me

and we had one of those silent exhanges.

then suddenly i was being swept off my feet and into his arms.

he hugged me, one of those huge bearhugs that warm your heart

when he put me down i rushed over to the cake and pulled him along.

he laughed "shwayshway its not going anywhere"

i laughed

when we got there i got out a single candle.

i placed it in the center and lit it.

i didnt sing

me:"make a wish"

he looked at me:"wishing to a cake is over rated, id rather ask you to get me my wish"

i smiled and nodded.

he gave me a half smile and blew the candle.

faisal:"i wish......" then he smushed a cupcake on my face.

i opened my mouth in shock and let out an angered noise

me:"this is the last time i buy you red velvet cupcake! or any cupcake at all!!"

he laughed

a very new sound to me.

it was a sound that seemed to come from deep inside him, making his whole body shake.

he held his stomach. as he laughed.

faisal:"la la 5ala9 ana asif"

i smushed a chocolate cupcake in his face.

and then he held both my hands and plastered them to the wall behind me

then he said.

:"i wish you would forget me"

i was taken aback

"why?"

faisal smiled a ruefull smile:"because your better off"

me:"why would you say that?! your a good person-"

faisal:"make no mistake, im not. i have never been a good person, and i never will be, i wont try to hide that from you, bad men can do good things and good men can do bad..... which do you think i am? the truth"

me:"your good. you just dont see it"

he shook his head.:"no im not, and i never will be.....lets just- eat the cupcakes"

i took out the dvds and told him he could choose

he eyes me suspiciously

faisal:"you never let me choose"

me:"ya but its your birthday"

he raised and eyebrow and i showed him the dvds he smiled

i picked.

the oc season 4, vampire diaries season 3, or gossip girl season 1

he didnt know what to choose and i didnt want him to choose gossip girl for obvious reasons so i tried to hide it.

but you cant hide things from faisal

even when half asleep hes still sharp and alarm

he picked gossip girl, because he wanted to find out why i was trying to hide it.

personally? my favorite show in the world is gossip girl and my two favorites were chuck and blair.

i loved episode seven and actually cry over how awesome it is to start the EPIC ROMANCE OF CHUCK AND BLAIR.

so i tried to avoid that disk but sadly it was the cleanest one,

so i picked it. we went to his room to watch it cuz for some reason his dvd was better than the one in my room. he got an eye roll for that

he watched my face as he chose which episode to pick

ana kint 3ala a39aby.

when he pressed ok on the sixth episode i let out a breathe

faisal:"i change my mind"

he went and chose episode seven... it was all ok til you get to the last minute plus blair stripping.

when she stripped and chuck got up faisal asked me if he was her boyfriend.

i shook my head

then they got in the limo and my body tensed.

this was my favorite part in history.

it was like sharing a peace of my sould with faisal.

i wasnt ready to show him this.

so i got up as chuck said she was amazing and pressed pause.

i looked at faisal but he was already staring at me

faisal:"why dont you want me to watch this part?i mean there are other parts we saw.." he asked in a calm voice

me:"i know....i just dont like it"

faisal:"why do i think its the opposite?"

i let out a breath.

faisal:"layan, come on why dont you want me to watch it?"

me:"nothing, ill watch it with you ok?"

he looked at me for a moment longer. i was sitting on his armchair as he sat on the bed.

he pulled me next to him on the bed.

then pressed play.

and the song came on

(i dont want this moment to ever end when everythings nothing without you)


chuck told her she was amazing
she kissed him

he asked her if she was sure

and she kissed him in answer.

and then it suddenly turned into one of the old fashioned cameras trying to capture the moment that chuck and blairs romance began

and gave him everything

(i want you to know, with everything i wont let this go, these words are my heart and soul, ill hold on to this moment you know, cuz i bleed my heart out to show and i wont let go)


considering there were other scenes in this episode that were somewhat like this.

this one was the one that got to me

so i just sat there and looked.

and when it was over i looked at faisal to see him staring at me.

faisal:"you want your first time to be like that? in the back of a limo? do you know how uncomfortabke that would be?"

i looked at him blushing.

he got it then his face turned red,

then he picked episode one and we just sat there quietly, no comments or anything.

faisal:"you want your first time to be with someone special, your prince charming, you know what i wish?"

i looked into his black eyes in the dark, and he talked in his tired heavy with sleep voice.

faisal:"i wish you wont ever settle for someone less then you deserve."

i nodded:"will do"

i smiled .

his eyes fluttered shut

as he slept i shut off the dvd player and started to get a cupcake on his desk when i saw something

my signature.

i pulled the paper out

i read the fine print

i 

i
didnt feel my legs could carry me
 i was married