chapter 32

i felt the blood drain from my face.

layan looked at the tv. i knew it was time to make a move.

me:"lay lay i have to go sleep im beat"

layan breifly looks at me and smiles, she looked sleepy too

"ok you go ill catch up after this movie i love it i never get sick of 27 dresses."

i hugged her and left to go downstairs.

i went downstairs.

i went and saw faisal in the living room downstairs,.

he was giving me his back

i went and sat infront of him, he was in a master armchair

i sat in front of him.

he looked at a glass of water on the table.

he didnt look at me.

"shsima3tay bilthab6?" he asked
willa chan i look at him dead in the eye and tell him "shinu illy ma kint tabeeny isma3a?" i asked

he held the glass
faisal:"ilkalam illy gilna ma kan 7agich, fee ashya2 ilmaftrooth ma to9al layan, moo min 9ali7ha lo tadry" he said calmly

i huffed
me"illy mo min 9ali7ha illy ga3d tsawoona-" i satrted to say chan isakitny

faisal:"oboy ga3d isawi kil hatha 3alashan tigdar torath kil ilshareekat, nu9 ahya o nu9 ana bidal ma ikoon bas ana" he said.


i gave him a look
"you know thats not what im talking about" i said.




he looked at me

faisal:"you heard about the options" he guessed

me:"the hell i did!! isma3ny faisal itha inta 3abalik tigdar til3ab-"

chan i6ig il6awla and i shut up

he looked at me in all seriousness

faisal:"this is all for her" he said.

me:"BULLSHIT!! making her fall in love with you is not for her sake its for yours, your so cruel enough as to make her fall inlove with you when you dont give a shit and then you pack up and leave" i said.

me:"you just want someone to love you because your not capable of loving anoyone, your emotionless."
faisals nostrils flared and the glass in his hands shattered




i yelped.



bas i wasnt done

"5af rabik, lo 3indik tharat ra7ma, you would pick the first option, the one were she never finds outm the one were you stay the hell away from her. instead of making her fall in love with you" i said.


faisal:"shhal 5arabee6, im not making her do anything, and she doesnt care that way"

he said it then regretted it because we were both there when she confessed to him

me:"lets make a deal, you go with the first option, you stay away from her, or just make her hate you, and i wont tell her"

blood was coming out from the cuts min the glass he broke.

faisal:"you dont threaten me reem, thats not the deal. the deal is, you shut your mouth about this and i wont tell fahad how u feel. " he said.

my mouth gaped

me:"thats not good enough a deal"

faisal:"then trust me to do the right thing" when he said it i looked into the black holes layan thinks are so beautiful and i see that faisal doesnt have a soul, they say the eyes are the windows to the soul,

what is faisal? a monster. it seems like it

me":the thing is faisal, i dont trust you"

faisal grimaced.

faisal:"last deal, i pick the first one and you shut your mouth about this to anyone,"

me:"and you stay away" i said.

he looked at me intensly

faisal:"ill try"

we nodded to eachother.

me:"oh and faisal, if you care at all, stay away from her" i said.

faisal looked at me and smirked

faisal:"whatve i been trying to do these past few months?" he asked.

i nodded
me:"try harder" i said.

but his phone rang and he started walking to the door and as he walked i heard who he was talking to.

faisal:"halla yuma, shlonich 3asa ma shar"

i felt a pang of regret o t7asaft shway 3ala how mean i was to him.

after all i can only imagine what hes going through.....

i went to layans room and found that she wasnt there.

i guess she was still watching her movie.

i lied down on her bed and slept.

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-layan-

i was so into the movie that i lost myself in it.

i laughed my ass off when she wore the dresses and he commented on them, his comments were so funny.

i was eating some cookies and i was comfy on the couch with a shawl.

faisal walked in..................

he looked at me,

his eyes looked tired. he looked at me with a sad expression.

i stopped smiling and i looked at him worriedly.

me:"fasial are you ok?" i asked.

he smiled a tired smile. and nodded

faisal:"its nothing" he said bas his voice was so dry, it broke and i looked at him, his eyes were far away.

and thats when i saw something.

i gasped his hand was covered in blood.

i stood up and walked to faisal.

me:"fasial, what happened to your hand?" i said and grabbed it.

he winced.

i looked him in the eye

faisal:"gizaz, bas its nothing, just a scrach" he said,

i shook my head

me:"roo7 ig3ad 3ala il8anafa, ill go brign my first aid kit." i said.

faisal:"la la layan shda3wa 3ady" he said.

bas i pointed to the couch and went to get my first aid kit.

i came back five minutes later to find him watching the movie intensely with a pained expression

faisal:"why does she like that stupid boss of hers, ya3ni ma tifham?? ma yabeech lo kan yabeech chan ma 5atha i5tich" he said to the tv and i laughed

me:"oh my god your just like me i talk to the tv"  i laughed and took his hand

faisal shook his head

faisal:"la hatha killa min fahad, min kithir ma he talks to the tv, ana ta2athart minna" he said

and i laughed again,

i patched up his hand and patted the back of his hand

i looked up at him to find him looking at me.

me:"your all done, bas layl7een bachir troo7 ilmostashfa" i said,

faisal:"is that what you want to be? a doctor?" he asked wonderingly

i smiled.

me:"i like making people feel better, if its min il nafsiya ow physically" i said,

he smiled

we both turned to the tv

me:"do you like 27 dresses too?" i asked

he looked at me o kan fee ilthi7ka,

he coughed. i think he was covering a laugh.

thats the closest thing faisal ever came to a laugh in front of me.

he shook his head.

i laughed

me:"laish its romantic"

faisal:"romance is nothing if you dont know who your falling for,its not worth it" he said,

i was shocked bas i wanted to know more.

me (while looking at the tv):"what do you think makes love worth it" i asked

faisal:"risks, taking risks, even though your expected to be someone or do things, you take the risk knowing you could lose it all" he said.

he was looking at the tv.

i dont think he realized he was even talking to me.

so i looked at him

me:"what do you know about taking risks?

he was still watching the movie. bas he smiled to himself.

 faisal:"i dont know becasue ive never taken one, ive never found someone worth the risk"

he said it and i knew what i had to do

i had to say this

me:"your worth the risk faisal" i said it in such a low voice,

 and i didnt think he heard me at first because he was watching the movie so intensely with a small smile. bas then i saw the smile along with the cluelesnness drain from his face and he looked.............. mu 3ajba

faisal looked at me with serious eyes
faisal:"no im not"

 me:"i care about you, and your important to me, i dont know, dont ask me why i care faisal, i dont know why, whether its how clueless you are, or how different, its not important you dont have to care-" i started to say.

he stood up. and walked to the door

faisal:"no i dont think so layan, im not worth the risk, im not, trust me" he said and walked out and went to his room and slept,

i slapped my head.

i watched another movie bas i wasnt really into it i was too busy thinking about him

so i stayed up for two more hours.

then i went to the kitchen,

i went there and saw faisal, he was looking into the fridge,

i turned around and left.

i didnt know where to go so i walked outside into our garden, its in our backyard people cant see us.

i sat down on a hammock

i sat there and thought.

i fell asleep on it,

i dont know how long i stayed bas i felt strong arms lock around me carrying me i opened my eyes and saw faisal.

i stared up at him

me:"faisal im sorr-" i started to say bas he talked right over me without looking at me

faisal:"just close your eyes  layan" he said it emotionally

me:"doesnt change the fact that im sorry, you know what? im not sorry" i said,

he sighed

faisal:"why are you making this hard for me?" he asked

me:"because, your faisal" i said in a really low voice.

he stopped in his tracks and put me down. we were in between my room and his so its in the hallway both of our rooms were kinda far.
i stood up.

faisal:"whats that supposed to mean?" he asked. his eyes hard


me:"it means your special."



faisals eyes softened

faisal:"amout wa3arif layan shitshofeen feeny?" he asked

i smiled.

me:"your there for me when i need you, you never let anyone hurt me, you make me feel safe from everyone" i said,

faisal:"except me, your safe from everyone except me" he said, then he walked to his room.

but i said something

me:"you wouldnt hurt me" i said.

he stopped in his tracks and turned to me

faisal:"and why is that?" he asked with a smirk

me:"because despirt your bad boy act, your a good person, your caring" i said.

faisals smile fell

faisal:"you expect too much out of me" he said,

me:"thats just what i see, " i said.

we were quite far apart from eachother,

i was in the middle and he was at his door bas when i said those words.....

faisals walls fell and i saw all the pain in his eyes

he closed the distance between us. and stood right infront of me

faisal:"lets make one thing clear layan, i dont care about you, i never have and i never will" he said, bas his eyes spoke differently.

and do you know what i did?

me:"i care" i said.

he shook his head. and i saw his eyes full of pain and sorow, and pleading, he looked at me and his eyes were asking me to back down,and at the same time to hold on.

me:"i love you"


 he held my face between his hands

,  bent and looked me in the eye, emotions swirled, and his fingeres felt like fire on my skin


 then he raised his lips to my forehead and kissed it

then he left bas before he entered his room he wished me goodnight.

i stood the for five minutes asking myself if that really just happened.